A Lifetime of Tomorrows (Shattered Men Book 1) by Alex J. Adams

A man living a lonely life full of self torture meets a struggling singer and has an instant connection. But both harvey and Killian have their demons, and maybe it's too much for them to overcome even together.


From the blurb:

“All I wanted was a lifetime of tomorrows, but you left me with only yesterdays.”

Harvey

Deviant. Abomination. Monster.

These thoughts haunted my very existence and left me with scars I hid.

Life had no meaning until he showed up with the voice of an angel and a body built for sin.

All-consuming, I was obsessed with the man who showed me how to live again, to feel, to breathe.

But the voices in my head wouldn’t stop, and as much as I tried to ignore them, ultimately, I was too weak and surrender seemed the only option.

I lost the man I loved, and I lost myself.

Three years later, I see him again. He hasn’t changed; only his eyes reflect the hurt I caused him. Will he ever forgive me?

Can I put his demons to rest as I have mine?

Killian

Addict. Philanderer. Disgrace.

Had I ever been anything else? Why not add murderer to the list and complete the set?

Shunned by my family, I moved to England, tried to lose myself in drugs, women, and men. When that didn’t work, I turned my focus to the only other thing I knew – singing.

What I didn’t expect was to fall for the quiet, reserved man full of issues and trauma. He soothed my soul like no other, brought light to my life, and gave me a reason to live again.

But then he left, and my heart wasn’t just broken. It was shattered.

Singing became my everything, my way of coping with the grief that tore me up inside.

A chance encounter, and he’s back in my life. Can I ever forgive him? Do I want to?

What if we’re making the biggest mistake of our lives?


A Lifetime of Tomorrows is an MM story, the first in the Shattered Men series with a guaranteed HEA. Trigger warnings for addiction, self-harm, internalised homophobia. Mention of suicide, both thoughts and intent.

If you loved Saving Ziggy, then you will adore Harvey and Killian!


SNik's review:

First in series (Shattered Men). Second chance. Slow burn. Hurt/comfort. Heed content warnings. 

Harvey has avoided any kind of personal connection for years, but there’s an instant connection to Killian even though it triggers his mental health issues. Killian is waiting for his big break as a singer, it’s been years but just as he’s working on building a friendship and something more with Harvey his chance comes and he has to grab it. 

The beginning of this relationship was heartfelt, the realistic sense of reaching out to someone and giving them support in all the ways you can doesn’t mean they are instantly healed. For me the second chance aspect fell flat, after years apart it was like they had never stumbled, and I do wish there was more time spent on their relationship building, before and after. Overall, I did think Harvey and Killian worked together and liked the idea of finding that special person that a connection becomes meaningful and lifelong is the epitome of romance.

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