All I Want for Christmas is Revenge: M/M Romance by K.A. Merikan

Having someone offer to kill the people you want revenge on shouldn't be a turn on, right? But Rowan is willing to bargain with the slightly crazy but very sexy Saint in order to get his Christmas wish. All I Want for Christmas is Revenge is a dark holiday story.

From the blurb:

“I will kill the men who murdered your family… for a price. You will be mine.”


Being a hitman is the loneliest of jobs. We don’t have many friends. Some don’t even have family. Lovers? Try explaining to your boyfriend why there’s blood on your shirt.

Christmas is the worst time to be alone, but this year, love is on the cards for me. All thanks to a letter I found in the street.

It reads, “Dear Santa, all I want for Christmas is revenge…”

At first, I’m intrigued by the words, the grisly details, and the rage steaming off the page. The author doesn’t know it yet, but we are a perfect fit. His bloodthirst is equal to mine, his creativity in coming up with ways to kill is admirable, and when I track him down, I instantly fall for the wrath in his dark eyes.

His wish is my command, if he’s ready to pay the price - being mine.


My therapist always tells me I should let go of my pain and rage. But I don’t want to let go. I want the men who attacked my family dead.

I just never thought I’d get my wish granted. But there’s a catch. The handsome monster who abducts me to his lair wants me as his payment.

Me, the strange loner filled with bitterness and sarcasm. Me, who never even had a boyfriend. Me, with my cane and irrational fears.

But I’d sell my soul to the Devil for revenge, so I might as well offer my body to a seductive assassin. After all, he cooks well, kills people, buys me bath bombs… What else could I want in a boyfriend?


All I Want for Christmas is Revenge” is a standalone M/M dark romance where an obsessive hitman desperate for love zeroes in on a young man willing to trade his life for revenge. (+Cute Christmas dates!)

Themes and tropes: Size difference, assassin, mistrust, snowed in, small town, revenge, loneliness, illicit arrangement, possessive hero, past trauma, dark humor, abduction, first love, soulmates, age gap, disabled hero, morally gray

Warnings: Kidnapping, violence, gore, stalking, strong language, and steamy, explicit scenes

SNik's Review:

Standalone. Age gap. Dual POV. Heed content warnings. 

Rowan is sort of broken, having suffered a horrible tragedy when young, he can’t overcome his fears and his yearning for revenge as a result of that one night. When a hitman stumbles across Rowan’s wishlist of revenge, there is no doubt in Saint’s mind that he and Rowan were meant to connect, and when he finds out Rowan is gay, Saint ruthlessly bargains to have the young man in his life in return for a little murder. 

This story is not for the faint of heart, as the relationship that grows between Rowan and Saint is not exactly considered normal or healthy, although the violence and morally gray way they live may certainly appeal to some readers. 

There is plenty of heat and steam between them, and surprisingly sweet moments even while plotting murder. 

An entertaining book with an assassin that supports a young man to overcome his fears and embrace the anger, with bits of the holidays thrown in as a cozy compromise to all the violent action.

Rating: 4.25 Stars

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