I Am God's Dagger K.A. Merikan

Wow! 100% need to read the trigger warnings here as I Am God's Dagger is super Dark and covers some majorly heavy themes. That said, this book is absolutely amazing.  

From the blurb:

“I know what’s been done to you, and I will see you avenged.”

Gabriel. Broken. Lonely. Scarred. Delusional?

Abaddon. Lord of Locusts. Master of the Bottomless Pit. Angel of Destruction and Vengeance… But is he real?

After a psychotic episode in his childhood, Gabriel is left shattered and unable to join society. Trapped in the orphanage he grew up in, he is plagued by nightmares of events that never happened, events that left him scarred, flinching at touch and achingly lonely.

Until one day he decides on a whim to not take his meds.

Born from a cold womb in the ground, Abaddon awakens to the world with one goal: to destroy a cult that commits blasphemous crimes in his name. What he doesn’t expect is meeting a boy who survived one of their rituals.

That is when God reveals Abaddon’s true purpose. He shall protect the boy from the vultures circling him and avenge his pain. He shall take Gabriel under his wing and provide all the love and affection the boy never got to experience.

As they set out to hunt the monsters together, Gabriel entrusts his body and soul to his beautiful guardian angel, yet he can’t stop questioning whether Abaddon is real or just a creation of his touch-starved mind.

Either way, vengeance has begun to cut through the cultists with its scythe, and there is no turning back, no matter how deep the rabbit hole goes.


Themes: opposites attract, hurt/comfort, size difference, angst, childhood trauma and abuse, mental health, self-harm, deception, mindf*ck, occult, gaslighting, revenge, torture, blasphemy, orphanage, cults

Genre: Dark, thriller M/M romance

Length: ~ 86,000 words (Standalone)

WARNING: This book contains adult content that might be considered offensive. Strong language, violence, torture, and explicit scenes. Reader discretion advised. Not for the fainthearted.

Virtuous Sinners is a collection of gay romance stories that center on killers who are guided by a virtuous code. These dark novels are connected only by theme and can be read standalone.

The killer's virtue in “I Am God's Dagger”: Piety

Reds Book Reads Review:

Now how to tell you how and why without spoiling it! My heart broke for Gabriel. He has been though so much and has been so badly mistreated by everyone around him. When he walks in on vengeance being dealt by Abaddon he decides this must be a delusion from not taking his medication that day. 

What comes next is a tale of intrigue and vengeance with so many twists and turns that you’ll be kept curious right to the very end. 

I Am God's Dagger is so well written and you just can’t help but love Gabriel and rage with him. I was drawn in from the very first page and didn’t want to put it down without knowing what happened next. Amazing.

Rating: 5 Stars

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